Happy Frigg and Freya’s Day
Well, with heart and mind finished it is time to turn to my body. I must say when I look back at all the shit I went through this summer, I am glad I did focus on my body and health because it gave me a focus to work on through all that. I still found a way to get to the gym regularly and I began to focus on nutrition.
I now hover slightly under 300 lbs. I am six-foot four and I have lifted weights for a couple of decades, so I have a good deal of muscle mass, so I don’t think I will ever be able to drop below 250. The lowest weight I achieved in the last ten to fifteen years is 285 and that was with a pretty extreme diet but it could have been tweaked because I still was eating a lot of carbs back then. With my new diet, I am interested in seeing how low I can go now.
That said, my main measure of progress is not my weight. It actually is standing naked in front of a mirror. Yeah, that’s right because it’s the only way to give yourself and honest assessment and provide motivation. You stand there until you can see clearly what the problems are and get mad enough to do something about them. I still have three problems areas which are my inner thighs, my waistline and my pecs. In the first and last of these there is a little fat still present but it’s surrounded by loose skin from the losses so far. My waistline is definitely lighter but there is still room for progress. Only time will tell if my skin will lay flat.
I as glad for the progress this summer but I am still making some now. The real thing this summer was that my heart was wounded and my mind muddled but my body was doing good. It was getting stronger, leaner and feeling better. It’s probably what kept me from completely losing it.
My diabetes was heading the right direction at my last checkup. The real great unknown is that the only health coverage we could afford at the moment was something that covers if the shit hits the fan and not much else. My doctor also has moved to clinic practice and I will have to find a new one anyway. This is where I really need to find a new job and reassess things as far as health care, because I and my wife are at an age where things need constant monitoring at least a couple of times a year.
“Discipline is the willingness to be hard on oneself first and then if needed help with the development with others, so that greater purposes may be achieved.”
Principle: Apply discipline to every aspect of life that it can be applied.
There are two opposing views that work in my head all the time – The one in my head that says I can do better and the other one that says no one is perfect. I believe in driving myself to be better, but acknowledging that Rome wasn’t built in a day, so it’s one step at a time thing. So far I think that everything I can provide discipline for has it. I am constantly evaluating my development and how things are going.
“Perseverance is the ability to stand up and return from defeat and failure”
Principle: Keep getting up after every defeat or failure.
It could be said that I get up every time I fail. That said, sometimes it can take a bit of time. Time is not something I have a lot of these days. It could be said that I am facing the crunch of the end of the semester and graduation looms, so as I also said on Monday watching my six a lot emotionally, so I don’t have a meltdown at the crucial time. Being able to take a hit and still be standing and moving forward is important right now and I need to be in that state of mind and heart.
“Fidelity is the will to be loyal to one’s Gods and Goddesses, to one’s Folk, to one’s self, and loyalty to one’s friends was as valued as highly as loyalty to one’s family.”
Principle: Be loyal to those who have been loyal to me.
I get asked how thing are going between my wife and I from time to time. I can only say that we have our good days and bad but it’s more good than bad. The observation I would make is that we are healing our marriage which both of us acknowledge was damaged by both of us which led to certain vulnerabilities. It’s this process of learning to build again, to build loyalty between us and a wall around us that is our chief focus.
The situation kind of forces us to stick together. Thanks to the ministry, we are about 20 years behind all the rest of our friends of the same age as far as financial security. Both of us have said it feels like we are back in Bible college times but we are older and wondering what time warp is this? We either stand back to back or we are going to be in trouble, so that helps the fidelity question on our marriage.
The other areas of fidelity are solid and always have been at least on my side. I actually have considered going through my friends list on Facebook and doing another purge. There are just some people who are my ‘friends’ but I haven’t had any interaction with them for years. I keep my circle small. I value loyalty as much as I try to give it. I value it more than the number of friends I have.
- Weightlifting – 4 days per week.
- Cleaning – 3 days a week.
- Walking – 4 days a week
Seems solid other than when I have a class canceled or like this week my car breaks down and I had to skip a class, the walking needs and alternative. Cleaning and Weightlifting will be finished Saturday so that is good.
I have an intermediate goal that may find its way on to my goal list. To be in the best shape possible for my 50th birthday which is in March. Nutrition is going to be a big part of that and I need to lock down my eating habits from now until then. I have received more remarks this month than in a long time as to how much weight if have lost and how good I look. A lot of that has to do with the Paleo Diet and intermittent fasting.
Foundational – My heart is a wreck still but I have made some progress in learning how to heal, the need to find closure has been identified and I feel that even though this section of the NNV is in some cases my weakest, it is getting better.
Business – Really this is just working things as I try to finish my school and get a better job. It’s about working the early stages of the plan to set a foundation for prosperity. My mind is coming into focus but it really still needs some work and I am trying to do that work better.
Self – This is the best area of my life right now. I feel stronger, leaner and better physically than I have in years. Discipline is returning to my life and I feel good about that.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.