Happy Frigg and Freya’s Day
Rogue Wizard’s Journal January 14th, 2019 (cont.)
I found my clothes on a table just outside the room and a couple of towels. I was still a little wet from whatever process they had washed me off with, so I dried off. and then started getting dressed. It was then that I felt eyes watching me. The Lioness of course and two other individuals – Lunette and Raven.
“Now all you ladies have me at a disadvantage. You have now all seen me in the buff, but other than Lunette in middle school, I have not seen any of you in your natural state. Any takers? No? Well, excuse me.”
The three of them seemed a little self-conscious, so they looked away as best they could but I continued to catch glances. I smiled. Underwear, t-shirt with workout saying, socks, jeans, hiking boots, necklace with Valknut symbol, wedding band, sweatshirt hoodie with local university on front.
“Mr. Raby, do you use enchantments at all?”
“No, not yet anyway. Never had he need, always focused my studies on how magic in and of itself could help me. Enchantments are nice to have but they can be taken from you, if you lose what is enchanted.”
“You could do an enchanted tattoo”, Raven suggested.
“Yes, I could. Combination of alchemy and enchantment and attached to my skin. Might be worth considering. Speaking of alchemy, nice bit of work there Lunette with the lipstick.”
Lunette looked down at her feet.
“Can I ask if the alchemy works on everyone, or it was just targeted to me?”
“Targeted. made the formula from a lock of you hair I took back in middle school. I was surprised the formula hadn’t gone inert, but it was still active.”
“Shit knocked me out fast, figured it was targeted. That long ago? What was the occasion?”
“That day when we were freshmen in High School. When you grabbed my arm when I was being a bitch to you. You basically told me to back down and I was pissed about it. Wanted a weapon to target you.”
I nodded. I remember that day. I said something to the effect that I was like crack cocaine to her, so she was vulnerable to me and needed to knock off the snotty bitch thing. Enough reminiscing, need information.
“Well, ladies what happened to the Red Tree Grove? Best theories please.”
Lunette spoke first.
“She must have decided to leave and give up immortality. Only thing that fits. She didn’t pick a replacement, so her power simply diffused. The protective power was gone about ten years ago, so I went inside. The tree was still alive but barely. Those three scars you helped heal. Someone had opened them up again. Given that she was the only one living there at the time, she might have done it herself.”
“Well fuck. Yeah, trying to break her addiction completely. No tree, no drug. Where do you think she went?”
This time the Lioness spoke.
“We don’t think she kept her physical form. We think she went completely spirit form. It would allow her to possess any female she wanted, and keep a long life possible for her. She could move from female to female and occupy them. Use them as hosts to live for a long time. Then move on. Only problem is that every time she would switch she would lose a part of herself.”
“Any leads on that?”
“Yeah, the woman you had an affair with? She might have been one of them. Highly likely.”
This stunned me for a minute, then. Of course it would explain how could she have connected with me so well and so quickly and how I also had changed in my thoughts about her. I mean up until February she was just another woman in the congregation, then that all changed.
“How much control would she have had? Over her host I mean?”
Raven spoke this time.
“Only when it was truly needed, she would be too weak otherwise. Indirect influence most likely. The woman had her own choices, but perhaps there was a nudge from Elpis.”
I cringed at the name.
“No, it’s OK. I have been running from this too long. I suppose it was inevitable that both Elpis and Miss Salty would be mentioned. Time to quite avoiding and face what they were to me. Both loves of mine and lost.”
“I guess I would fall in that category too.”, Lunette injected. Sad tone in her voice too.
“Yes, you would and my wife now that she has been killed by the Council. I don’t have any loves that are not lost in some way now. I’m alone.”
Those last two words hung there for a minute. Like a diagnoses of cancer said aloud. Lunette seemed a little pained by it.
Raven spoke first, “You might find love again.”
“Right now, I don’t want it. It hurts too much; too risky. Need to mourn my wife for a bit yet. Promised myself, if she died I would mourn her for at least six months. It’s only been a couple. I honored our Christian vows when we got back together, would have continued if she had lived. I don’t really have that view anymore so my next love, if there is one, would have different rules.”
I turned to face all of them.
“OK, the only thing left for me is family. They will be in danger as long as I am alive. What’s the plan? What do you want me to do?”
I know, I broke my initial rule about mentioning Elpis and Miss Salty. But it is time I faced down my real life actions and dealt with the emotions of this whole thing.
For a long time when it comes to fiction I have been struggling to find some inspiration and I think it is because I have been avoiding this issue of late. I need a new motivation, a new muse to write for. Instead I have been dealing with The Grey that results from emotional constipation. I think laying things out there ends the bullshit at least and now things can get flowing again. Like an enema for my emotions. Gross but accurate.
I write fiction from emotion. It is definitely a more heart then through the mind thing. Non-fiction is the other way around, so it is easier. This last week has been me struggling to get past this and I think I have some relief at this point. Still some things to work out, but I feel for the first time I can write at least a little more freely when it comes to fiction. Hopefully I am right. If I am, you all should be seeing more fiction from me very soon.
Practically for this series, it eliminates the past almost completely for my alter ego. His decision to fake his death would mean; at least for a time, he would be walking alone and too busy for a relationship. Not saying there won’t be something in the future, but for now love is going to be kept at arm’s length.
In real life, my wife (alive and well) and I have made a strong commitment to make our relationship work. There are some more obstacles because of my change of faith and my attitude about a lot of things in general has changed as well, but we work on them. It has been hard at times, but for he most part we are a loving couple again.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.