Happy Sols’ Day!
Rogue Wizard Delay:
No, it is not an accident there is a delay in the next chapter of Rogue Wizard and this is a The Grey and The Wayfarer post for The Rabyd Skald. It’s connected to the fact that the more I think about writing this next chapter, the more the Grey seems to hit me. It seems to be one of those moments where I have a choice about facing the Grey and walking through it – it needs to be done. But when I do this is up to me.
Writing is therapy for me, as many of you know. Sometimes it is unpleasant and has to be done. Other times it flows. I this case I know what I want to do and what should be done and they are the same. The problem is the process of writing is going to be an emotional roller coaster. So I am having trouble, but I will have it done by next week but not this week. Apologies.
My support group is working out very well. I mean it is great to have fellow former clergy to talk to who are also non-believers in anything. It makes everyone relatable and a lot of them have been through the process and at a later age than me so they help out a lot in keeping my feet on the ground and standing.
My therapist and I have had two sessions. Doing it on Skype allows me to see her and she can see me so it gives me a genuine reactions both ways. She is a good listener and hasn’t been judgmental at all. Mostly though she has listened to me and thinks that next session we can start working on a plan. The main two issues I deal with on this level are my change of identity and my marriage.
Through The Clergy Project, I also have job help for my career change. I decided that even though I could use a new job soon to go more organic and find what fits me as well. I don’t want to be doing a job I hate just to pay the bills anymore. So what do I enjoy and can make money at the same time is a journey of discovery and my job coach is taking me on and she is really thinking January or February which still is within my goal of having this done by March.
I was reminded by my wife that there are many books on my shelf that I have not read and should read them. So new books only when needed to keep the pattern of a non-fiction book; then a fiction book. I haven’t been doing well on this yet, but I have started. Mostly though it is going to be a process of going through my library and pulling out things I haven’t read and putting them together to work through the rest of this year and next.
I have come to the conclusion that I need to do my book writing like I do this blog. I need about 3-5 projects at once and rotate them so boredom does not set in. Basically, I have three non-fiction books and two fiction in the hopper now. I try to make progress on one or more every day. It is the word count that matters.
Thanks for everyone’s patience. My emotions tend to dominate my writing more than other things in my life. I have been able to be consistent on this blog, but other things need consistency too. Thanks for reading.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.