Happy Sol’s Day!
Rogue Wizard’s Journal – November 5th, 2019
Yesterday I spoke about what happened according to my girls after I was hit with the death spell by the necromancer Death Angels. I need to now speak about what happened to me while unconscious because it needs to be written down before the nature of it slips away. Before my emotions about it swallow up the memory of it.
I spoke before of how my consciousness slipped away and I fell down ‘dead’. I found though that I was not feeling too much death, but rather peace and love. It was a strange feeling and then as I lay there with my eyes closed I heard a voice.
I knew that voice instantly and in my excitement, my eyes fluttered open. I was shocked at what I saw because I wasn’t in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan anymore. I was in The Red Tree Grove. Like it was when I was young. Full of life, trees, ferns, birds, squirrels, and bright colors. There was the tree not too far away. Large like an oak, but covered in red maple leaves and white birch like bark. A truly unique tree. Majestic and making anyone standing next to it feel small and very young.
My eye focused however on the throne part of the tree was in front of. There she was sitting – Elpis. She was covered in the same birch park skin as the tree so it was hard at first to see her but the red hair like the color of the tree’s leaves set her off a little.
She stood up and walked toward me and as she did the bark skin was shed and revealed the naked woman beneath. Her body was short but the kind of sensual curvy that made a lump in my throat every time. Large breasts with cute nipples and nice curvy backside. Her round face dripped innocence but eyes that were deep and spoke of long years of life but youth at the same time. Her hair was brown, but it could have been any color she liked. She changed the color and length often. Her smile beamed right into my heart.
She was not so much the gorgeous dryad of legend but the young teen girl and ancient matron all rolled into one. The experience of meeting Elpis is something people do not forget. I know the first time I did, I fell hopelessly in love with her.
“Hello Edward, it is good to see you again. You got old. Still, look good though”
For the first time, I realized I was naked myself and for once felt old. The last time I was in her presence I had been eighteen. Now my body had suffered the years of a few decades of mortality. I hoped at that moment I wasn’t a disappointment to her. But there was an old deep emotion that began to take over in me. I crossed the few feet that separated us and took her in my arms and hugged her. Crushed her really and kissed her hard. When the kiss stopped I whispered in her ear.
“I love you.”
“I love you too Edward.”
She kissed me this time and then breaking away she took me by the hand and led me to the side of the tree where we used to make love. She pulled me close to her and we made love again. I will not speak of the details here. That is my memory and one I will cherish for all my remaining life. When we were done she spoke again as we lay in each other’s arms on the soft grass.
“Well Edward, you are still good at that. Better actually”
“I had a good woman teach me. She was wonderful and gentle with me. I have missed her.”
Elpis teared up but then she took a breath and spoke.
“I don’t have much time. I can’t maintain this reality much longer and soon I will be gone. The powers have granted us this one moment to say goodbye for good.”
I began to cry and she took me in her arms again.
“I took the death ray for you, Edward. I possessed you and took the death intended for you. You will live, but I am now finally dead and at peace. My regret is that I will have to leave you behind again. I don’t know if we will see each other again. I don’t know so many things about what is after death. I do know that you will go back to Lunette and Amber and you need to love them and let them love you. The moment you live is all you really have so live life.”
“Elpis, there is so much I want to say.”
“Edward, sweet Edward. There is no time. ‘I love you’ is enough. close your eyes.”
I closed them reluctantly taking in one last look at Elpis’ face.
“I love you, Edward.”
“I love you, Elpis.”
I felt her lips against mine as we held each other in the grass and then the feelings of her body and lips next to mine faded away. When I awoke, she and the grove were completely gone and I was laying on an open empty field that stretched as far as I could see. I began to weep. I wish things had turned out very differently. So much do I wish that.
It wasn’t but a few moments that I felt the tug of mortality pulling me back to the real world. When I woke up, I had Amber hovering over me and she started to cry as she held me. I was crying too, but for a very different reason.
I am alive because of Elpis’ sacrifice. I guess she lived up to her name after all by giving me hope in the midst of death.
I am a little emotionally distraught after writing this so I will break for now and try to write the rest tomorrow.
This was a hard part to write. The emotions were pretty high on this one. Elpis is a character based on Miss Salty and the connection is very emotional. I never built a series like the Hedge Wizard of Redberg which contained: 1) Love for a woman, 2) My own life and 3) my favorite genre of fantasy fiction – urban fantasy. It was a labor of love for someone and I never have done that before. It ended abruptly when the whole affair between Miss Salty and I came to light. I had to literally delete the blog and everything on it because people were reading it as reality.
Which is why I make this final note. There is no love scene in either the Hedge Wizard of Redberg or Rogue Wizard that has ever been real. They are fantasy, perhaps longing and desire at times, but never real life.
Now, I truly do need to take a break. But I wanted to send Elpis off as she deserved – a heroine with a deep love for Edward at the end. As a character, she was a labor of love I will never forget. I did weep like this when Miss Salty left me and now I will probably at least cry again. There are a few more scenes to Epilogue this series and bring closure, but Elpis had more act to play and I sent her out the way I wanted to, the way she deserved, and not by someone else’s hand.
Elpis means “Hope”.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.