Happy Frigg and Freya’s Day
Star Trek is a complicated conversation for me, as it used to be about something that examined all issues fairly in a science fiction setting. With all the new series and such, my issue of course is that the universe known as Star Trek is it has taken on a life of its own. So much so, that it is impossible to keep up. Star Trek for me remains sitting in front of the television as a boy watching the original series. It shaped me in that I learned very much to look to a future that was optimistic. Not the same optimism that Gene Roddenberry had, but optimism nonetheless.
There are many truisms from that series and one of my favorites comes from Spock and the simple goodbye ritual of saying -“Live long and prosper.” In the absence of religion or faith, it is a blessing that is very mystical, yet secular. It is also a worth goal and a from a Self point of view, it sums up my objectives very well. Just trying to live a long life in as much prosperity as I can.
“Discipline is the willingness to be hard on oneself first and then if needed help with the development with others, so that greater purposes may be achieved.”
Principle: Apply discipline to every aspect of life that it can be applied.
Being hard on yourself, knowing you can always do better, can be challenging. I am right now testing my discipline by basically not keeping my paper journal this week. What I have discovered is fairly typical – I am now doing some things automatically, other things I am not, or I am forgetting to do some things without the journal. It illustrates the process of how discipline takes something that is a good activity from something difficult, to something that requires less and less of a push until it becomes a habit. Most things re somewhere along the line of knowing it is a good thing to do and starting out to habit. Most are somewhere in between those two.
“Perseverance is the ability to stand up and return from defeat and failure”
Principle: Keep getting up after every defeat or failure.
I know that the next half a year or so is going to require a lot of perseverance emotionally and mentally. Memories right now of last year at this same time are going to haunt me. There will be a lot of things that I look back on with a lot of sadness. This sadness can and probably will at times cause me to shut down emotionally. For me that means becoming cold and feeling nothing. The Grey.
There will be a lot of voices in my head that will not be positive. I have to keep going despite it all. My only hope is that on the other side of all this there will be better days and I will be stronger for walking through it. That’s what keeps me going.
“Fidelity is the will to be loyal to one’s Gods and Goddesses, to one’s Folk, to one’s self, and loyalty to one’s friends was as valued as highly as loyalty to one’s family.”
Principle: Be loyal to those who have been loyal to me.
Being loyal to myself is the central thing right now. For the first time in my life, I think the priority of my own prosperity on all levels is present. If people find this selfish, then they can bite me. People always call others selfish when people don’t do what they want to advantage themselves. For me if I don’t keep myself going, then everyone who depends on me also suffers. I have lived long giving to others at the expense of myself that this is a whole new world for me in some ways and fear of course is there. It is courage and loyalty to myself that cause me to pick up my war axe and keep walking forward.
Higher Virtue – Wisdom:
Balance has been the word of wisdom this week. Trying to keep my foundation, business and self aspects in balance. It can be a challenge, but in so doing, I find myself more at peace. Unfortunately it is a peace that requires victory and victory implies battles and wars to fight. But it is peace that can be achieved so I fight.
- Weightlifting – 4 days per week.
- Cleaning – 3 days a week.
- Walking – 4 days a week
- Writing – 4 times a week
- Cheat Meal Count – Currently 0
The weekly routine goes completely to hell when I don’t keep my paper journal. I think I cleaned once this week and didn’t write at all. Cheat meal Count? Who knows. Yeah, this one requires keeping it in front of me every day so I am reminded to do it.
- Take supplements and medications.
- Brush and Floss Teeth
- Out the Door Preparation
- Reading – 15 min.
- Go to Bed
Tough one as well without a journal to remind me. When I look at all of the routines – the morning one and the daily one have the most habits that are automatic. The weekly stuff and the evening stuff are still things I have to remind myself to do.
Off script this week. Basically a week of whatever although I do find that I gravitate toward low carb foods or the flip side things that have enough sugar to make my diabetic side cringe. That’s the yin and yang of it right now with nutrition when I don’t force myself to keep track of it. Extreme either way.
Foundational – Off script, these are the virtues that hold up best. They are after all stuff that is a constant more than the others.
Business – This area needs more focus and events at my current job have reminded me once again why a change in job is needed.
Self – I struggle the most here off script. I really need more of a habit of taking care of me as a whole. Perhaps it speak as to how my last occupation taught me to ‘deny self’ to the point of losing myself. I now consider this one aspect of Jesus’ teaching I would demand further explanation on; because once you have spent all, then you lose and everyone else wins at your expense. I fail to see the good in this at all anymore.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.