Happy Sif’s Day
Poem: “The Ghost of You” by Edward W. Raby Sr. – written from September 10th to September 14th, 2019
On the edge of the vision of my spirit
Is the Ghost of You
You haunt my dreams and my waking moments
You trouble me without even being here.
Like a poltergeist,
you disturb the objects of my mind
Like a wraith,
Memories of you shimmer in my heart
Like a phantom,
you stand on the side of the road
Haunting my soul as I travel on
Stop Haunting Me!
Keep Haunting Me.
I can’t decide.
When I reach for you,
When I don’t.
Well according to my archives this is the first poem I have written since April 2019. I still have the same problems with them. On the one hand, I love them because I feel when I write poems, they are even a more true representation of my heart and feelings than any other thing I write. One the other hand the person who opened up the world of poetry to me is remembered – Miss Salty. And that has a whole pack of emotions that just flood in.
Especially since this poem is about her. The idea for this poem came right after I wrote these words in a The Grey and The Wayfarer post (link) on August 9th that were directed at her:
I ain’t going to lie, I miss you. But I struggle with who exactly I miss. Was it really you or the character you were playing? Was it MaKala, Miss Salty, Elpis or someone else? I do know that whoever she was, she came into my life at a very cold, dark time and offered a lot of warmth and light. For that, I thank her, whoever she was. She was truly the salt in my life that gave it flavor at the time. She will always be Miss Salty to me. There will always be a small piece of my heart that loves her. It is just the way I am. I don’t know if not being able to get rid of love completely for a woman I have loved is a blessing or curse sometimes. Please don’t take advantage of it.
My words in my head were at the time I finished writing this paragraph were: “It is like she is a ghost.”
About a day later the seeds for this poem started flitting around in my head – like ghosts. I tried for the last month to just not think about it, but it kept haunting me. Seriously. I am no coward and so I intend my puns, but this is literally how it felt. I think it even triggered a recent episode of The Grey a few days ago and that’s when I decided to write it and get it out of my head and into concrete form, hoping to eliviate that. Time will tell if it works.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.