Happy Saturn’s Day
I doubt anyone but a very few who have followed me for a long time would understand the meaning of both the image and the title of this post. Only one person, that I know of, knows the full meaning of what I am writing about and the songs I am about to select. Only one person knows why this is the day I choose to post them. Whether or not she even reads me anymore, I have no fucking clue. But if she does, here are my thoughts on a day that was supposed to be something but turned into nothing.
What I do know is that I have been either calm because I have been busy, but every time I have too much time to think about things, this comes up and the combination of sadness and rage begins. I handle it, of course, like I always do, but it means shutting down to the cold side. That is not the side I like very much. My other alternative is music. The problem is the songs I find in my memory or that I think revolve around this non-existent event that was supposed to be today. Only one-way then left to deal with it – write about it and get it out of my system.
Disclaimer: This is a raw one, so be advised. Although I might just post the songs and leave it at that. You know that is probably the best idea: Just a playlist this week. Make your own meaning out of it. Me – I am just trying to sing my way through The Grey. The one thing I will say is not every word of every song applies to how I feel about this whole thing, but there is some line in every song that does.
400LUX – Lorde:
All of Me – John Legend:
Familiar Taste of Poison – Halestorm:
Just Give Me a Reason – Pink:
Somebody That I Used to Know – Gotye:
Bad Romance – Lady Gaga:
Incomplete – Back Street Boys:
A toast then, to the fantasy hedge nuptials that never came to be. Too bad, because at least the music and poetry would have been epic.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.