Happy Moon’s Day.
My personality type is INFJ-A. If you are familiar with Meyers-Briggs you know that means I am and Introverted, Intuitive, Feelings oriented, Judging type of person with a A on the end for being slightly assertive. Sometime called the advocate or protector. Now over the years I have changed in my personality indicating to me that events of life can change personality.
I want to look this week at the Higher Virtues and the Nine Noble Virtues in relationship to my personality type to see if I can find any insight into myself. Today I will talk about Love (Romantic Love in particular) and the other Foundational Virtues related to my personality, I will hit other subjects as the week goes on.
There are lot general things I could see but the thing that sticks out to me about myself when it comes to love, is that when I share with you my inner self, it is because I believe you will never hurt me. I have missed judged this many times and I have paid a price for it. I also am struck with how once I have loved or had a strong friendship with someone I never forget it. Love is tough for me, because I bear the joys and scars from it for long time. When someone I trust my inner feelings to betrays or breaks that trust in some other way, it is devastating. The hurt is long-term and never completely goes away.
“Honor is the feeling of inner value and worth from which one knows that one is noble of being, and the desire to show respect for this quality when it is found in the world”
Principle – To possess a feeling of inner value about myself and my future with a desire to find the same in others.
Goal: Maintain a daily blog streak of one post per day for an entire year (365 days).
Bucket List: Hike the Northern Lakeshore Trail along the Pictured Rocks National Lakeshore in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan.
This is the second week in a row that I have struggled with honor. I don’t know why or how to get over it. I think getting back to lifting helped but I think I need that long walk yet and the weather has sucked. I think my personality might have problems me loving me. Am I actually reaching the point where I am trying to learn to trust myself again after failing myself? That would be very INFJ.
“Courage is the bravery to do what is right always.”
Principle – Act with Courage at the right time.
Goal: Cross one thing off bucket list every year. Deadline March 31st
Bucket List: Go Back to Budapest, Hungary for a vacation.
Courage as a part of love is difficult. It is one of the reasons I came back to my wife and continue to struggle with rebuilding the relationship. In my mind actually we are building something new that is better, because the old was not that great. It’s the right thing to do even though when I was considering reconciling I struggled with what I would have to give up – opportunity for something new – in order to reconcile. Love require work – courageous work at times. For me as a INFJ, I perceive how deep that is and why I gravitate toward it.
“Truth is the willingness to be honest and to say what one knows to be true and right. It is often better to not say anything at all if one cannot be honest.”
Principle – To Be Honest and Speak Truth to Myself and Others. To Be Silent in the presence of Fools.
Goal: To Write a Non-Fiction Book by March 31st, 2020
Bucket List: Learn Latin by March 31st 2020 to the point I can take a test and show my self proficient.
Truth in Love. In the Bible Love rejoices in the truth and I would say that is a solid statement. The real problem last year with me and love is that even though I trusted in love both on the friendship side and the romantic side. The truth I couldn’t see, but should have known on my INFJ side, is that it might be true that the other side of those relationships was not feeling the love I felt at the same level. That truth, which I didn’t see, bit me in the ass.
One of the things in my recent taking of the personality test is a significant change in my introverted level. It indicates that from this year to last year I have moved to be more introverted 75% to 94% which is pretty significant. Truth is, my trust level of others has been pretty damaged by this whole thing. Something I might take a long time to get over as an INFJ.
Higher Virtue: Love:
People should come up to my wife and give her a big hug and tell her what a great person. She is because of a lot of love factors. 1) Of all the people I hurt during this crisis, she had the most reason to tell me to fuck off and not come back. But instead she did two things. She acknowledge to me her part in the failure of our marriage and she forgave me for mine. I started loving her anew at that moment. 2) Without her I wouldn’t have any reason to completely trust anyone other than maybe one last friend and that would have meant a lot of really bad things for me. Like dark angry shit. Without love, I think we INFJ types get mean. Because we expect much, we get disappointed hard when love fails and that leads to some pretty extreme reactions.
My wife’s love is definitely one of only two close relationships right now that I would consider proof of my trust in other people. The rest have all been damaged because it is apparent to me with most of them the statement they claim as Christians – ‘love bears no record of wrongs’ on a practical level is bullshit. They don’t really believe it or practice it. Wish they did. For me I gave my trust and love to some wrong people and they turned their backs on me.
- Review Nine Noble Virtues (NNV), Principles, Goals and Bucket List
- Meditation – 3 min.
- Check Communications and Email.
- Paper Journal: Create Daily Log and To Do List.
- Breakfast, Medications and Supplements.
- Shower and Personal Hygiene
- Get Dressed for the Day
Solid, no complaints.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.