Happy Tyr’s Day
Wow. Amazing sometimes how an image will trigger shit. This microphone image, for instance, triggers a time where one of my old now-deleted blogs was my forum and it was probably my most popular blog, mostly because it was so raw. The Rabyd Microphone will live in my memory as a time where I was hurting very badly and let everyone know it. I seem better now, but at the same time, I have toned it down a bit which means I keep some things in, which is not good. Something I am going to write on for tomorrow’s Odin’s Eye.
Looking at the calendar, I want to time my routine discussion for the last full week of March before I launch some new goals and change some of my bucket lists. Because of this, I have this week as more of an open discussion on what the changes might be before I begin the more detailed ones starting next week.
“Honor is the feeling of inner value and worth from which one knows that one is noble of being, and the desire to show respect for this quality when it is found in the world”
Principle – To possess a feeling of inner value about myself and my future with a desire to find the same in others.
Maintain a daily blog streak of one post per day for an entire year (365 days). (achieved)
Bucket List: Hike the Northern Lakeshore Trail along the Pictured Rocks National Lakeshore in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan by March 2024.
I see no need to change the virtue or its principle here. That has never been the struggle with honor. Honor itself is a struggle of high difficulty all its own. it is having that feeling of value in yourself and recognizing it in others that is the challenge. This has always been about being honorable by habit.
My goal here was to blog each day for a whole year with the desire that the blog would be an honorable expression of my life and goal achieved but now I continue the streak and we passed 500 days a long time ago. Now, I look for a goal that allows me to start honoring my commitments to myself. So now the issue is moving from being a blogger to a committed writer. This is a commitment I want to honor to myself. What that goal will specifically be I don’t know quite yet, but it will involve honoring myself by being committed to being what I want to be.
The bucket list item will remain as it is.
“Courage is the bravery to do what is right always.”
Principle – Act with Courage at the right time.
Goal: Cross one thing off bucket list every year. Deadline March 31st.
Bucket List: Go Back to Budapest, Hungary for a vacation by March 2029.
Honestly, I don’t see any changes here at all. I want to keep the crossing one thing off my bucket list every year thing anyway and it is a goal that reflects courage. The only question I have for next year is whether to up the stakes and make it crossing off two things instead of one.
“Truth is the willingness, to be honest, and to say what one knows to be true and right. It is often better to not say anything at all if one cannot be honest.”
Principle – To Honestly Pursue, Accept and Speak Truth to All who will Listen.
Goal: To Write a Non-Fiction Book by March 31st, 2020
Bucket List: Read 52 books (one per week) in the year 2020.
Once again the Virtue and the Principle are solid. The goal is probably the one that will not happen because I really need to change this to reflect more of a writing habit than a specific end goal. Or that the end goal is to have a habit of writing. if I focus both my goals in Honor and Truth to this end I might see better results. The bucket list item is already behind by a few books because I have trouble with my routines. Not that they are bad routines or take a long time. It is just right now my battle with my depression triggers is a losing one.
Higher Virtue: Love:
I know what I need to do right now, my depression is keeping me from doing it because I am once again in this battle between doing what is best for myself and what will not hurt others. I don’t like hurting others because it depresses me, but if I don’t act soon in love toward myself, that will continue to depress me. The solution is to make the decision to love me and then walk through the emotions of others because that is the quickest and easiest way to feeling better overall. I just hesitate every goddam time. I don’t like making others uncomfortable. I feel that shit and I don’t want to feel it. But I also don’t like feeling like shit because I am not doing what I want to do either. One of these has to give or the problem will continue.
- Stretching / Yoga
- Review Nine Noble Virtues (NNV), Principles, Goals and Bucket List
- Meditation – 5 min.
- Check Communications and Email.
- Paper Journal: Update To-Do List.
- Work Days: Dress in Gym Clothes: Go to Gym – Weightlifting / Exercise
- Shower, Personal Hygiene, Get Dressed for the Day
- Breakfast, Morning Meds.
- Rest Days – Morning Walk (weather permitting)
Like I said – this routine is good and would help me battle my depression. I just need more of the Virtue of Discipline in my life. right now and get past my feeling on it.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.