Happy Saturn’s Day
“The Scar” by Edward W. Raby, Sr.
“Time heals all wounds”
“Bullshit” I say
I have been down this road before
I have scars that still bleed inside
Internal bleeding of the soul
Seepage of pain within
Toxic soul-blood poisoning
Hidden behind my scars
The scar you left on me
Is like all the others
A covered scab
Hiding a slow bleeding wound
Another badge of survival
The poison blood inside – fuel
The pain inside – motivation
Written by Edward W. Raby, Sr. on March 15th, 2019. Edited March 22, 2019
There are a lot of recent candidates for the ‘you’ in this poem. Including the one who taught me how to appreciate and ‘enjoy’ writing poems. In this case the quotes around ‘enjoy’ are probably stronger. Normally a poem causes me to remember this person with a little twinge of joy and pain. This poem was one I needed to write but didn’t necessarily want to write. Mostly because it was like literally pushing on the scar in question this person had left on me, making it hurt just a little more than just a normal poem. She definitely fits the bill for ‘you’
That said, I think the ‘you’ could be several other candidates over the course of my life. In any case the poem reflects my understanding that: 1) Scars are an illusion of healing. The wounds they hide never fully heal and often remain toxic and painful. 2) You just have to learn how to turn that toxic and hurtful nature of a wound received into fuel and motivation as you go forward. 3) Lovers and friends who betray or leave give us the most toxic and traumatic scars. So underneath, no matter how much it looks outwardly you have moved on, they still remain a part of who you are. Even when you would wish it was not so.
Poetically, this was my first attempt in shortening my poetry. Make the word choice more selective. Learning how to do this is a work in progress for me. As always constructive feedback on my poems is always appreciated.
Thanks for reading them,
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.