Happy Woden’s (Odin’s) Day!
Family disclaimer: You know the drill. Going to be pretty open here.
This lest month has been a round of The grey that I am still trying to keep going through. Things are getting better in small incremental ways but it is becoming clear that I cannot remain where I am geographically for too much longer. I need change or the promise of coming change in a short amount of time or things are going to be more and more difficult to fight off. I am too near people I hate, trigger memories I don’t want or make life awkward for me.
I have a plan in motion but I need to keep it pretty close to the vest because the last thing I need is my enemies getting ahold of it. Sometimes it is best to let them eat static and silence. The main issue for me is my emotions about things as I am definitely leaning more to the side of self-love and fulfillment on this one than anything else. It is what gets me out of The Grey when I think about it. That’s how I know it is pretty solid.
I press on in other ways through this blog, my Youtube channel and finding some solace in the weights and work. I am hoping the weather breaks soon so I can get some walking in. I need to activate as many coping mechanisms as possible.
The problems are that I feel so little connection at times. Something my therapist indicates she worries about. I miss a lot of things relational and emotional right now and this triggers The Grey fairly regularly.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.