Happy Sif’s Day.
There is no doubt after leaving the ministry and faith that I need to forge a new me. Sure it is going to be made out of the base materials of my life that are left, but it is going to have to be new. This is the hard part and it is also the getting started part too which makes it even more difficult. Except, it’s getting a little easier.
I saw a member of my former congregation a couple days ago at my work and it took me back for a second until I walked by them and she walked by me, She looked at me, knew who I was and said nothing. I responded in kind. It was a triggering experience to be sure, but for some reason, I got over it much quicker than I thought I would. Shit, The further I get along from those events it seems the better I slowly get and it becomes easier to focus on the future. The only exception seems to be lost love – Miss Salty. I still struggle with that, but who I am and changing it is becoming easier.
“Discipline is the willingness to be hard on oneself first and then if needed help with the development with others, so that greater purposes may be achieved.”
Principle: Apply discipline to every aspect of life that it can be applied.
Goal: To be following a full Paleo Diet by March 31, 2020.
Bucket List: Do a rebellious act on April 30th, 2020 – Beltane.
Nothing really about this goal that I can say other than the removal of some of the crap still remaining in my diet was a little easier than I thought. I feel better and the transition continues. The issue is to have myself be going strong Paleo by March 31st.
“Perseverance is the ability to stand up and return from defeat and failure”
Principle: Keep getting up after every defeat or failure.
Goal: To engage in an exercise program that involves weightlifting, hiking/walking, and stretching/ yoga an average of three days a week from April 1st, 2019 to March 31st, 2020
Bucket List: To get at least one tattoo by March 18th, 2020.
I am thinking next week I will switch my walking indoors. I hate treadmills but it is the only option for me right now that the snow has arrived. This is the other goal that has a finish line in March so I just have to keep going.
“Fidelity is the will to be loyal to one’s Gods and Goddesses, to one’s Folk, to one’s self, and loyalty to one’s friends was as valued as highly as loyalty to one’s family.”
Principle: Be loyal to those who have been loyal to me.
Celebrate my wife and I’s 30th anniversary (June 10th, 2019) with a mini-vacation (achieved)
Bucket List: Discover all the countries of origin from my genetics and visit them all by March 18th, 2029.
Higher Virtue – Wisdom:
Wisdom is hard here. I need a major change in direction in my life, I can see that. I just don’t know what is going to fly off when it happens. I know if I stay where I am and doing what I am doing, it won’t end well. I can see it. Wisdom says that I need to put off the past as much as possible and that is what I need to do. The dross of the past needs to go and the new me forged from the iron that remains.
Rest Day Routine:
- Morning Routine
- Wife: Communication / Cuddle Time
- Blogging – Organize, revise, write a new post for the next day, 15 min. work on fiction.
- Cleaning – varies but one room of the apartment at least.
- Reading – 1/7th of a book
- Writing – 3000 Words
This is going to be good I can tell already.
Goals and Bucket List Items Achieved (Since Summer 2018):
Goals Achieved: 5
- Graduated College with a BS in Political Science and minors in Economics and International Business – December 2018
- Finalize last requirements for my degree – Internship by May 2019 – May 2019
- Celebrate my wife and I’s 30th anniversary (June 10th, 2019) with a mini-vacation – June 2019
- Maintain a daily blog streak of one post per day for an entire year (365 days).
- By March 31st of 2020, to be the leader/participant in a group of some kind.
Bucket List Items Achieved: 0
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard, and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.