We don’t pray here – we figure God, the gods and goddesses, or whatever powers that be either know already, don’t give a fuck, or are busy with more important matters than our petty stuff. We also kind of assume that they expect us to do stuff that we can do for ourselves and that we will do them ourselves and not be lazy. We also believe in being good friends, so we don’t presume on our friendship with the powers that be by asking them all the time for stuff while giving them nothing in return.
We also don’t take an offering here. We figure the powers that be probably don’t need it. Let’s be honest, offerings are not giving to the divine powers, their giving to an organization to support it. Just being honest. God, the gods or whatever never see a dime, farthing or peso of that money, it all goes to the church, mosque or shrine.
Open Song: Halestorm – Amen
It is no secret that I gravitate toward songs and bands who speak about faith and religion and so this song by Halestorm is sort of one of my anthems from time to time. The words speak to me and definitely get my ‘Amen’.
I will leave the poetry to The Ruined Man this week. Definitely my thoughts about myself this week. There are simply some things that have to be dealt with alone.
I am not a big one for fate. I think we make our own luck and our own success. This proverb definitely resonates with me.
Song of Preparation: Smash Mouth – Walkin’ On The Sun:
Some things are indeed impossible and other things make you shake your head. Smash Mouth seems to get that in this song.
Text: Havamal 95
Only the mind knows
what lives near the heart;
a man is alone with his own spirit.
There is no sickness worse
for any wise man
than to have nothing to love.
There are a lot of different ways to translate this Stanza but for me it reflects that only each person knows what he truly desires but there is no sickness worse than desiring and loving that which you cannot have.
I suppose it might be speaking to that old adage about youth being wasted on the young. That once you figure out what you should do with life, you don’t have the energy or the time to obtain it. Maybe.
For me this speaks more to the sadness that can sometimes develop when you finally realize what you want, but there is no way to get it. I have experienced this many times and I have come to realize that in those moments, it is often time to change our desires and focus elsewhere. If there is any wisdom in discovering a desire is unattainable; it is the wisdom that says move on and continue to live life. Something else will come along that is attainable.
If you can’t do that well there is a sickness of soul that will come over you known to me as The Grey and to others as depression. It’s amazing how as we get older depression gets more common and I can’t help but wonder if it is this finally figuring out what life is about and yet not being able to attain it. I hope that whatever you and I desire it is attainable. Such a sickness is more than I have been able to bear at times and I wish it on no one.
I could go with the other interpretation of this passage which says there is nothing worse than to grow old and have nothing to love. I would agree and I feel this is why most people die in a lack of hope. They stop having something to love and without that, there is little motivation to keep on living. It’s why I want to keep a bucket list in front of me forever.
I don’t know. For me personally, it is the truth that no one knows what is on the heart of a man or woman other than that person themselves that is the glaring truth. A person could tell you the whole truth about what they want but the truth is that what they want is actually deeper still. It’s good to remember that the closest council any man keeps is with himself. No person reveals all of what they are and that is a good thing to remember.
Closing Song: Monty Python – The Meaning of Life:
May you unravel the meaning of life and live it fully. May all your desires be attainable.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.