Happy Saturn’s Day. It is Day 3 of Yuletide. This night is sacred to Mani the god of the moon who determines its course each night and determines its phases. The Night is also sacred to the concept of darkness. This night honors the beginning of the return of the sun. This is where the yule log tradition is; where hunters light one and jump its flames for luck in the coming year. It is also a day to remember and honor the virtue of Courage.
The Grey and the Wayfarer:
It’s been a while since I have written about my depression battle and perhaps it is because this seems to be such a normal thing to me right now and in fact The Grey has been strong, but I have kept walking through it and made it to the other side. I won’t say my problem with depression is resolved as in ended so much as it has been easier to resolve to walk through it.
In large part I have had some struggle this semester in school because of it but I look back and realize that I walked through it and made it and in the process did some good work in school. Some of it was crap because of the drain of energy The Grey can have at times; but other parts of it were good. I mean I did really well in my international business class and my economics class. I enjoyed both of them which was something that was good.
I have love-hate relationship with my depression. I love the times where I am coming out of it and there is a burst of creativity and clarity I simply cannot explain. It’s the fucking valleys that suck that you have to walk through to get to those moments.
Today is about writing as much as depression, as I use writing as a way to fight it. I find that I can artificially pull myself out of depression by writing. It’s kind of tool at times to force me to shift from the valley to the mountain. This blog has been an instrument of that several times since its creation. Well, with time off from school and just having work to go to, I have been thinking about some changes to The Grey Wayfarer’s writing schedule.
Most of the stuff that is scheduled will stay the same: Sun’s Day: The Pagan Pulpit, Moon’s Day: A Skald’s Life – Foundational Virtues, Tyr’s Day: Of Wolves and Ravens, Wooden’s Day: A Skald’s Life – Business Virtues, Thor’s Day: Odin’s Eye, Frigg and Freya’s Day: A Skald’s Life – Self Virtues.
The problem of course is Saturn’s Day which has been Rogue Wizard and The Grey Wayfarer sharing space. Sometimes not doing either and doing one of these The Rabyd Skald posts in its place like today has happened too. I have the additional problem of now that school is over of wanting to write more on the fiction side of the ball. Not just for the blog either but on the side in that I would actually get my novel done by the end of June.
Now I have done more than just the fantasy type stuff of The Grey Wayfarer serial and the urban fantasy stuff of Rogue Wizard. I have done science fiction and I would like to even do some fiction of a more normal nature. My mom is a fan of mysteries and thrillers are often enjoyable. My thing for the blog might be simply Short Stories of various types. I reluctantly admit that doing a poem and commenting on it might be viable as well. My point I that I have a lot of ideas running in my head and I am thinking of how to create platform to present them.
I just don’t know if my fiction should be confined to a single day anymore and Saturn’s Day should instead be another regular feature. I want to give that some thought but right now I am leaning toward a weekly discussion of Norse Mythology. The fiction however might one of those things where I write them in a pattern and when one is finished, it gets posted the as a second post for the day. What I may simply do is set aside say an hour to a half hour where I just write the fictional stuff each day and when one gets finished to my satisfaction, I will post it.
For you the reader this could be difficult, I mean it means taking what you get and waiting for your favorite to come about which is why using an established order will be employed to make sure I don’t get stuck on one thing. I will tentatively guarantee two of these a week as well. At first I will just do the two fictional series I have been doing and I will announce when something is added. Just know that there are some changes coming and hopefully they will be good ones.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.