Happy Saturn’s Day
I know probably all of you are expecting another installment of The Grey Wayfarer Fantasy Serial, but I have been backlogged with a lot of homework for school. I want that series to be high in quality, so I could either skip it this week and make sure it is good stuff next week or I could rush it and it not be as good. I chose the former.
I also am considering another serial of a different nature for variety so Saturdays might be one or the other of these series or both. I really like to write fiction, so it’s really not a problem.
I will not leave you post less however so I feel a personal update is in order.
My wife and I are doing well. Moving out on our own is probably the best thing we could have done for ourselves and probably should have done it a lot sooner than we did. Perhaps if we had done so, a lot of things would not have happened as they did.
I have been struggling with The Grey (Depression). One day I will be fine, the next angry, the next sad and then depressed the fourth day and then back up and at it the next. I have spoken about how I think this is caused by a lack of closure. There is a cycle to it and I am thinking that if I could get some closure on things or healing could be sped up in some way that cycle would be broken or minimized. I am just not sure how.
A thought struck me this week that my tattoo plans might be the answer. I view this not so much as acts of rebellion or a mid life crisis (Sweet Baby Jesus, this has been long mid-life crisis; if it is one) but as statements about milestones in my life, a new philosophy or statements about the past. It is this last aspect that I think I might be able to use as a markers on my journey through life. Because of this there is now a real desire to get that first tattoo again. I could see it as a line where I pass from one thing to the next. The past behind and the future before me. Symbolized by tattoos. There is also the fact that such a transition would come with pain – some how that seems appropriate. It’s at least an idea.
On a more personal note – I want to thank everyone who has stuck with me. Who has not let my bad decisions and bad frame of mind deter you from being my friends or reading my blogs over the last several months. Your concern is appreciated and I don’t know if I thank my genuine friends enough for sticking by me.
The Rabyd Skald – Wandering Soul, Bard and Philosopher. The Grey Wayfarer.